Disclaimer: I do not own the characters of "BtVS" and "Angel", nor do I own any rights to the television shows "Buffy the Vampire Slayer" and "Angel". They were created by Joss Whedon and belong to him, Mutant Enemy, Sandollar Television, Kuzui Enterprises, 20th Century Fox Television and the WB Television Network,... I own nothing! (Hey, do you think I could be so mean to them?!) So nobody sue!
Couple: "Angel"/"Buffy" -- of course!!!
Spoilers: Everything and nothing - makes sense?
Rating: you saw "Earshot", you can read this
Thanks to: David and Sarah and their chemistry
Feedback: Yes please, but be nice!
Author's Note: This is very serious, no fun!
And: There's always somebody you can talk to. Don't give up.

Buffy sat in front of her PC and chatted with her best online buddy when she downloaded her mail, she did it about the tenth time for this day. Nothing bad had happened before, not even the daily Joss Whedon horror had invaded her mail box since all B/A shippers all over the world had united and "talked" TPTB into the only right thing.

They were right in the middle of proving a conspiracy theory about a famous couple when she opened the mail of Tom, a mail, phone and e-mail friend of hers from the other side of the state. The mail seemed a little confused and had lots of mistakes in it.

/ /Hello Buffy,

About sadness I could tell you some stories. Not that I could imagine what the Slayer has to go thrugh each day, but I have to make my own decissions every day and I have to take what's resultin.I have nobody to talk to and I have nothing on that I coud build on.Because of this I don't know why the whole shit has to last longer.I admire you that you have the power to go on, now it seems that I don't have it no longer and actually I wanted to end my life on my birthday in Januaray, but something got between it, a point where I thought that I can go on but now I can no longer built up that wall so high.....................

I wish you everything good/ /

Buffy couldn't believe what she just had finished to read. She was shocked. And didn't know what to do. She looked around, but there was nobody she could discuss her next steps with. Angel was in L.A. to get his last things together to move back to Sunnydale and Willow still lived in the dorm while she had moved into the mansion to stay with Angel.

'What am I going to do now? Ill call Tom and try if I can talk with him.'

She logged off and dialed his number, but only the answering machine switched on. There was no chance to reach him.

Buffy didn't know what to do now, so she decided to stay calm and think about her situation.

'Maybe this is just a bad joke, yes, that's it. Just a very bad joke.'

She fiddled with a pen and watched the clock.

'And if I'm going to call the police and it was just a joke, I could get problems with the officers.''And what are my friends going to say if Ill make a fool of myself?'

She turned back to face her monitor.

'And what if I lose my friendship with Tom?'

She remembered that the mother of one of her best friends had committed suicide and how much this had hurt her friend and still did ..., but still!

Buffy decided to push her worries away and turned back to her PC.

The next day she had forgotten about the incident and looked forward to see Angel again in the late evening. She arrived, back from college, at the mansion and the first thing after she had thrown her books into a corner was to play the answering machine to hear if Angel had left a message.

*piep*

"Miss Summers I have to tell you that Tom Vector committed suicide last afternoon found your number in his address book under 'family and friends', so I thought I had to tell you."

*piep*

Buffy felt as if she couldn't breath and suddenly ......

"Buffy, Buffy ..."

Angel shook Buffy on her shoulder.

"Buffy wake up! You're have a nightmare!"

Buffy gasped when she woke up, startled. Sweat run down her face and her hands trembled.

"Buffy what's wrong?"

Angel draw her near and Buffy started to calm down a little.

"I ... I dreamt that one of my friends committed suicide and I had the chance to rescue him, but I didn't do it because I feared consequences because of the police and everything."

She sat herself up and Angel did the same. They cuddled into the bedcover and made themselves comfy. Angel held her close.

"I thought that it could be only a bad, a very bad joke and that I could get problems if I called the police and asked them for help."

Angel caressed her golden hair and started to speak softly. "Baby, tell me, which real friend would do something like that? This is no bad joke! This is very mean, psycho terror! No real friend would do something like that to you! And about calling the police ... if a friend tells you that he or she, irrelevant what age, wants to commit suicide, and you cant reach your friend to see what's going on - call your police station. They will help you and start actions if its necessary. You wont get problems like this and believe me - they rather drive out on duty one time too often, than to lose one live."

Buffy turned around to face Angel and looked deep into his eyes."Always take care of yourself, Angel! I would die if I would lose you! Never again try to kill yourself! You *are* a thing worth saving! I love you so much! Never leave me again!" She kissed him and the kiss turned soon into a very passionate one.

So what's the moral of this story?

I had this situation this evening, means that I got such an e-mail - and I called my police station. They sent somebody to my buddy and got there before something bad happened.

Please take care of yourself and show yourself responsible. Reflect!

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